So it snowed today in London. It was magic. I sat at work looking out of the window watching the snow fall. It was so beautiful.
I haven’t seen snow like this since I was a child and it made me so nostalgic for my childhood. The excitement of having snow and then being sent home early from school; the joy of playing outside all day and then coming in for a hot chocolate and to play more games in front of the fire… Thinking about these memories made me miss the child who I used to be, the child who would never stop talking and singing; the child who loved the outdoors and spent every minute of her life there.. it got me wondering what happened to that child, I felt in that moment that a part of me was missing.
Yesterday I was at my yoga teacher training and the theme of the weekend was full expression- being completely authentic. I had a fab day but I was left with the feeling that I hadn’t been 100% myself, I felt like I was holding back something. Now when I think back to my childhood self I know that I am holding something back, something that is buried deep within. It sounds strange but I know that there is a part of me that I am hiding, even from myself, and I think I am now ready to let that part of me be seen.
Today at work I was myself. I let down my mask and had a magic day full of laughter because I was myself. I was fully expressed and felt amazing.. I want to live like that always. I never want to feel as though I have to hide from the world, like I am not good enough. I am giving up those thoughts right away.
So the snow brought out my inner child and I felt a deep longing to be that girl again. I think today I was. I was completely myself. Isn’t it funny how the smallest things, such as a tiny bit of snow, can evoke the deepest responses and give you a glimpse of the truth, for me that is true enlightenment.
I think we spent our life denying the inner child within but if we can embrace that place within ourselves then we could open up our world to so much more happiness and peace. If you look deep within yourself is there something that you are suppressing? Is there something you loved to do as a child which you don’t do any more? If the answer is yes to these questions then go do it! Be a child again! You don’t need to think about it much, just allow your mask to be removed and be yourself.
This is what I have realised today, and I wanted to share it with you all. Thank you for listening..
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