Adventure.

My heart is calling out for an adventure at the moment. I have been in London since January last year and now I feel restless. Sometimes I even feel as though I am stuck. I want to go and travel the world and gain new experiences and have an adventure. Is this naive of me? to think that it can happen and be perfect? Or is it completely sane?

I feel ready now. I feel as though this past year I have learnt so much about myself and I am now on the right path in life. I know where I want to go and I know what I want to do.. at least I think I do. I am so sure that I have got everything figured out but then I know I will probably look back on this moment later on in my life and think about how little I knew..

I guess we probably all feel like this. We all feel like we know but we only know what we know, right? We don’t know what we don’t know, until we know what we don’t know and then we know.. Am I making sense right now? I don’t even know. I feel as though I am babbling on, a stream of thoughts that are totally non comprehensible but that is ok with me. Right now all I want to do is get these thoughts on this page and see what it turns into.

Because the more I write the more I seem to figure out what is going on in my head. The more I write these thoughts get processed and shifted, I start to feel things as well, like right now I am starting to feel something in my heart. I don’t know what exactly. It is only telling me that what I am doing now is right. 

When I write I have no agenda, I just see what comes up. I never know whether my words are going to evolve into something meaning full or just remain a load of rubbish. I don’t know if people will be able to take away some sort of message from this or not. I guess it doesn’t really matter, maybe it is interesting to read another human’s stream of thought. It reminds us that we are all the same..

So this is what I have learnt today. I have learnt that karma is real. I spent the morning being rather moody and distant from my boyfriend, and then half an hour later I was sent an email saying that a podcast interview that I had planned with someone couldn’t happen. I think that was karma. I also spent the morning debating whether to meet with a friend for lunch or not, I didn’t want to go because of the snow, but I texted them anyways saying how I was still up for going and asking if it was on and they happened to have a last minute dentist appointment so couldn’t meet.. that felt a little like fate as well. It is moments like these, however small, that I get glimpses of the universe working and I do realise that this isn’t all random. We do have some impact to all of this..

My day today was beautiful and that is because it was simple. Maybe the message to this post can be that the most simple days can be the most enjoyable. Maybe you don’t need to go backpacking across India, you can find your adventure right here in your own home.. It is true that there is adventure and happiness for me here, I love it right now and I do feel grateful, but part of me longs to explore and I know that is what I must do next. I must follow my heart and the cry of my soul. I must let it take me wherever it needs to go.

So I am going to enjoy my time right now because I can feel that this chapter of my life in London is coming to an end.. I feel sad about that and also filled with possibility and excitement..

Is there an adventure in your life that you feel as though you need to have? However quiet that voice is in your head, don’t ignore it, follow your whisper.. this is my advice right now, my advice to you and also my advice to myself.

Namaste

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  1. I too sometimes feel / question what’s the use of sharing / blogging streams of thoughts online. But isn’t this also it’s own kind of adventure ? Even without backpacks? As above so below all outward things are also within, our inner universes are its own kind of fascination

    1. Yes that is also true! I think everyone probably has their own personal opinion on this! but yes own inner universe is another adventure in itself

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