Sometimes I forget that i am not the only one on this planet. I forget that other people are feeling the same things as I am, are having the same fears. We are all one after all.
It is hard to comprehend it all, but we are all manifestations of the same cosmic energy. We are all manifestations of God.
I have spent my life in conflict with that word ‘God’. I rebelled against it. I refused to let it sink in. I thought that God was not real and I even refused to believe in Jesus. I closed my eyes and my ears and shut them out.
Whilst I was doing this I was also praying. I prayed every night as a child, wishing that everyone in my family would be ok. I listed them all by name, even my dog, and pleaded with God to keep them all safe. I did this for 2 years. Beginning with the words ‘Dear God…’.
I kept this part of me hidden for so long, I think I was embarrassed, I never told anyone. I forgot about this suppressed part of me for years, but now it is coming to the surface again.
For 10 years I lived without God and those were the hardest years of my life. I lost myself. I turned into someone who I wasn’t and someone who was incredibly mean, selfish and above all scared. I was fighting against the world and not happy.
Now I experience God everyday. I still have resistance against that word ‘God’, I usually call this ‘thing’ The Universe or Energy.. but at the end of the day it is the same whatever name you give to it. God is not an old white man with a beard like I used to imagine, God is everything, god is us.
So we are all manifestations of this ‘thing.’ What does that mean? That means that we are all divine. We are all immensely special because we are God. We are also the same as each other, because we all come from the same place. We are all parts of the same thing, fragments of the whole.
When I remember this I remember empathy. I understand other people more because I see myself in them. I am forgiving because I know that they are me.
If all of this sounds a bit too religious to you then I completely understand. I used to be there. What we learn in school isn’t the whole truth, religion is not a box you have to fit into, it is not something that you need to believe in. What I am talking about goes deeper than picking a religion, it is something that you can feel. When you experience joy, that is what I am talking about! All of us have the opportunity to experience this everyday if we choose, it is the magic of life!
So remember that you are not alone. Remember that it doesn’t have to be you against the world. Whatever you are going through, you have this divine presences supporting you along every step of the way. If you make mistakes, that is ok, the universe will forgive you. You are on the right path and heading in the right direction, all you need to do is trust. Trust in the universe and trust in yourself.
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