3 weeks ago I left England for good.
and I came to hawaii.
It has been an interesting journey getting here. It has been humbling. A journey of dropping everything that I thought I knew and everything that I thought I was and completely beginning again.
This is a fresh start for me and it feels good.
I don’t know why, but I just haven’t felt inspired to continue doing everything that I used to religiously do everyday: suddenly meditating, recording podcasts and journalling seem futile to me. I am questioning the point of these things; questioning where they are leading me in life. I have felt the need to take a break from everything I previously did and completely begin again.
However, sitting here writing all of this down does feel good. I don’t know who is reading this, in fact I don’t know if anyone is reading this at all, but if you are I hope that I can inspire you in some way, just to be yourself.
So here in Hawaii is my place to learn just that – how to be myself…
I have immersed myself in nature, in activities, in the company of all the awesome people here. I have done new things: smoked weed for the first time; hitch-hiked for the first time; and drank alcohol for the first time (in a long time).. I am ditching any ‘boxes’ that I used to tick: the box of not drinking, not smoking, being sensible. I am letting go of these boxes so that I am free to be me: no constraints, nothing. Just me .
Maybe in the next blog post I will fill you in with everything I have been doing. But for now I just wanted to check in and let you know that I am happy and having an adventure. My focus for July is just to live. That is the only challenge I have given myself and really does require all of my attention.
So maybe you can take something away from this and bring you attention back to your own life. How can you live? How can you become more present in your own life and just be you? I think this is the hardest challenge we ever face: to be ourselves. But if we can master it then we are on to something pretty epic…